Weekend Catastrophe

One unusual thing I did this weekend was dye my hair way too blonde. I have dyed my hair blonde before, but it has never been as bright and radiant as it is now. I was actually kind of scared when I washed the hair dye out because it looked a little orange, but it was only because it was wet. When I blow dried it to make sure it turned out alright, I found out that it was way more blonde than I had intended. Some strands of my hair even looked white. Thankfully, now that I have let it set in for a few days, it is not as light as it was the day I dyed it. I am still not very fond of my hair, but it is better than it was almost a week ago.

Social Anxiety

If I could change one thing in the world, it would have to be how people view me without understanding my background. They often get the wrong impression of me because I have Social Anxiety. It often changed my mood around people I do not know well or have never met and I tend to get really quiet, mad, or very annoying. I can get annoying because I am really nervous and I end up rambling about my life or just being flat out wired. I do not do it intentionally, though. My social anxiety masks who i really am, and because first impressions count, I tend to make the wrong ones. For the people that stick around, however, we can become really great friends once I get to know the person. I am really not that bad of a person, but most people do not give me a second chance. Because of this, I have been bullied for years, which is slowly making my disorder worse and worse.

Pocket-People

A gadget I would invent that might enrich the future is "Pocket-People". This is a little mechanical person that can fit in a pocket and when someone needs advice, support, homework help, or anything else, they are there to help. There would be a website where a person can design this gadget, giving them a name, hair style, outfit, and even some tattoos and a voice. This could benefit people because they would always have a way to get help or support. People would always have someone to comfort them and even hug their finger or sing them a song.
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My Music

One characteristic I absolutely love about my self is, by far, my taste in music. My music means so much to me and it helps define who I really am. My music can tell you more about me than I could say in my own words. It shows how I really feel on the inside and can even show some sides of me people my not know about. Here are some examples:

"I would kill just to feel less invisible!" (Pierce The Veil "The First Punch")
I do not like to have a lot of attention on me, but I like it when people realize what I have done or accomplished. My talents are not recognized often, and I would really like them to be. This quote shows that I feel like I am invisible sometimes and I would appreciate if I was not, even for a day.

"And now I sing for everything that I've lost. And now I scream for everything that I've loved. Everything!" (Of Mice & Men "The Storm")
I do not sing (Simply becuase I am really bad at it), but I have lost a lot in my life. The quote "And now I scream for everything that I've loved" shows that I am more than willing to really put my feelings out there for what I love and that I would not be ashamed of it.

"If you were me, you'd do the same, 'cause I can't take anymore. I'll draw the shades and close the door. Everything's not alright and I would rather..." (Pierce The Veil "Hold On Til May")
I used to have a lot of depression problems, and this really shows how I was feeling at that time. The shades and the door, to me, represent my emotions and feelings and how I would always close them out. The unfinished sentence shows that I was not sure of what I would rather do. At the time, I thought death would be my only solution, but once I got a hold of myself, I was not sure of what I could do to open up.

My music can show a lot of things that I do not put out to the world. So maybe one day, someone will listen to my favorite songs and realize what I have been through and where I am now.